posted 11-10-2004 05:21 PM
i understand that people dont know what it is like to be a single parent and that there is no way to make anyone understand and i just toddle along and make the best decisions i can and i have done very well thus farfor about 5 years my professors kept telling me i should go to this certain grad school and how nice they are there...so I had faith in them because they are my friends and forgot that none of them are single parents and that i have never made a big deal about being one in front of them or told them what i have to do to be one
i applied and got in to the grad school with out really looking into it and its awful...they have a very rigid schedule and they are not set up for a commuting single parent...they are set up for well off young women living on campus and it has been total torture trying to adhere to their program and i cant...for instance they keep telling me i have to quit my job ( i will stop there)...
so i am in conact with ALL of my academic friends and i am trying to find a way into another program, but i missed all of the deadlines (nov 1)...i am no longer distraught because i have figured out that i have a 3 year emergency span to use for deferment of my loans (i want to and going to withdraw) and I am looking at jobs...its not hopeless, i have a good education and i should be able to get a job(during the week) if it comes to that but its not what was supposed to happen so.....
I am praying and praying and praying to that big guy or girl or whatever up there for the right thing to happen...sigh
thats where i have been...scrambling for recovery
but bad things come in groups and then only nice things happen for a while so...i am due soon 