posted 07-14-2006 06:58 AM         

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Hi all,

feeling really down today, just a build up
of things i think.

Lots happening at the moment, most not good.

I know god is there for me, just not sure if i am good enough for him.

Thanks for letting me whine.

God bless

-x-x-

posted 07-14-2006 02:56 PM         

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Thankyou.

I am so very gratefull for your words.

God bless.

posted 08-06-2006 09:41 PM            

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Hey JayJay..go under Forum:Pray Always and read my words...talk to you soon.
Chevelle

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posted 08-16-2006 12:49 PM         

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HI Jay Jay,
haven't been around much things have been crazy and well barely hanging on at times it seems.
Anyways to the subject at hand. I found something a few years back that works, umm when I do it.

I was asked to give the sermon/talk at our churches local FUN night (friends uniting the nieghborhood), well it happened to be the weekend before Thanksgiving so everyone was of course expecting it to be about being thnakful. Well our church has alot of lower income apartments surrounding it so I knew many single parents would be there wondering exactly what they were to be thankful for. I admit, I was wondering this myself. It was my second semester back in school, things were tight nad I had just started Lex in a school where she would only be home on the weekends. I was talking to my therapist and he told me each day to write down five things I did that were good. and five things I was thankful for. I had no idea how hard that could be. A few nights before the dinner I still had not written a single word. and was on the verge of calling the director to tell her I culdn't make it. I was leaving the parking lot at school and someone cut me off, he didn't mean to but the way the exit is it's not hard to do, I of course was annoyed. I followed behind him up to the stop light, ours turned green, he hesitated breifly then pulle dinto the intersection, a car ran a red light and hit him sending his car rolling three times. In my little car I would have been killed. It was that point I realized what my pastor and therapist meant. there are millions of things to be thnakful for everyday, small insignificant things we don't always see or always see how they affect us. But they are there and those are the things I have learned to be thankful for the million little things I don't see but change and shape my life every minute of the day.
I had to think back when writting my speech to a time almost a year before, I had gone to church to pick up a a few things and then was heading to the library after which I was going to make a deposit. I got to the church, go t to the library, and then as I was leaving the library, a guy in his big old cadillac blocked the driveway so no one could enter or exit, we sat there through two songs. couldn't back up because of the car behind me. literally trapped. finally he moves his car. I leave and head to the bank, walke dup as they were locking the doors, it was 3pm. the manager explained to everyone trying to enter they had just been robbed and the police were on the way so they had to lock the doors. five minutes earlier my daughter and I could have been there.
Jay Jay I dont know if it helped, but it helps me to remember some things are out of my hands, whatever is happening be thankful and things will work out.
There is a great song, " I will praise you in this storm" talks about how we need to praise him not only when things go our way but in the storm as well.

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