posted 12-29-2005 09:25 PM            

Sarah was being a nut job tonight. I had to pop her tail a few times before bed and it took over an hour to get her to sleep. It was nuts. But, I'm thankful that God has given me the strength to be the parent she needs me to be. He knew when he placed her in my womb that she would need a mom that was slightly more stubborn than she was. He blessed me with her laughter and her outgoing personality. Without that, I would be glum.

She was also a blessing to her grandparents. Her spirit will help them both get through the divorce and to remind them that the Lord is there for each of them. In addition to that, her father and his wife will never fail to hear more about the Lord. She has the gift of evangelism and preaches to almost anyone she meets. I'm thankful that her innocent love of the Lord and her inherent desire to share that with others. I pray that never changes.

I'm thankful for my best friend. We spent a good portion of the day together today and she helped talk me throug some thoughts that I've had about my relationship with Daniel. Her willingness to listen and provide wisdom is such a blessing to me.

I'm thankful for Daniel and the man that he is. God has built him up to be a caring and strong leader. His passion for the Lord and carrying out his will is a tesimony to all who know him. His love for Sarah and I bless me more than I could ever express in words.

I'm thankful for God never failing to open my eyes to all the blessings in my life. When I feel down or blue, he brings a ray of sunshine to help pick me up. He knows when I need a change of pace. He knows when I need a shoulder to cry on. He knows the lessons I still need to learn and lines up people or circumstances to help me get through them. He's faithful to me and encourages me to grow in Him. He knows that I am unworthy of such a consuming, gracious love but does not care.

He has chosen me to be one of His children. And the great thing is, He's willing to adopt anyone who will accept Christ.

I've been through so many ups and downs. I know that I have many more to go through before I leave this earth. But to live through God's faithfulness month after month, I'm left in awe.

Praise God. May be bless each of you in the new year with hearts that hunger for a closer relationship with him.