posted 11-10-2005 05:19 PM            

Blessings,

posted 11-11-2005 05:52 AM            

One big purpose that I'm confident of is disciping my daughter. That's my main job right now. Sometimes I look and see all the amazing things other Christians are doing and am envious of their tasks. But when we get to heaven God is not going to look at that. He's going to see if I fufilled on the work he gave me faithfully.

I'm torn right now, because I know that he has more for me. I'm just not sure what that is right now.

So I guess the question is, what things do we remove from our lives in order to start living more purposfully for Him? Can we accept that change is not always easy and trial and error is a part of it all? If so, we will walk closer to Him and our purpose will be made clear.

It's easy for me to say that I have to stop obsessing about things. As part of my ADHD, sometimes my brain gets hooked on a thought and wont let go. Or, I get caught up in a thinking storm and it wont stop. Focusing becomes impossible and I need some time alone to sort through the thoughts. As you all know, being a single parent doesn't work like that. I struggle with giving Sarah the attention she needs after a long day at work. When I come home, so many things need to happen, in addition to focusing on her. Since I know that she's my main purpose for right now, I need to find a way to cheerfully come home and spend time with her. It's hard becuase I'm an introvert and need time to recharge before dealing with an extroverted, talkative little lady.

While we are going through this, I'd like us to pray for each other. For me, pray that I will have the energy and desire to talk for a few hours with Sarah after I come home from work. Pray also that I continue to be faithful to Him in my relationship with Daniel.

Lexismom - When you get a chance, check out Philipians. It's a short book, but I got so much out of it. Paul was amazing. He had so much that he should worry about, but all he did was rejoice in the Lord. Even when he was bound in prison, he rejoiced. I don't have the joy he had yet, but as I walk towards the Lord, I hope that it will continue to grow.

Blessings,

posted 12-04-2005 08:12 AM         

At times like that i feel he is there for us the most, whispering in our ear that we are loved by him.

posted 12-04-2005 02:16 PM            

God has been pulling me in a few different directions. I've been doing the Philippians study alone for a while and now my mentor wants to go through it with me as well. It's worked out for the best because I may be leading a small lady's group next year and we'll start out in Philippians. I have younger girlfriend who sees me as her confidant and mentor. I'm still praying if to find out if this is where God wants me to go.

I joined a Sunday school class that's going through a Colossian 2:7 study. Daniel and I are both in it and I'm excited that God is giving us this opportunity to grow together. I'm really falling for him and I love learning more and more about what he thinks about God. It's encouraging to see that such a young man is so faithful to the Lord. He's such a wonderful man.

posted 12-04-2005 02:26 PM            

I long to be closer to God because that's what he wants of me. And I want what he wants for me as well. We have a relationship to build and my first goal in life everyday should be to further that. However, I'm human and get caught up in the cares of the world as well. So some days I stumble. As I grow in Christ, these will hopefully be less frequent. You see, I'm what my mentor calls a "toddler" in Christ. I still have a ways to go, but I commited to the journey, even on the days I fall.

And in the process of growing closer to Christ, I thank him for the joy he brings me. So, I guess in the end, maybe I do long for the feel good feeling. That feeling of approval from my heavenly Father who may one day tell me "Well done good and faithful servant."

posted 12-11-2005 12:47 AM         

Hello cheeneta

I think you are doing great.

posted 12-17-2005 05:47 AM         

God's standard is high yes, but donot forget that the Lord is merciful adn gracious, slow to anger and plentious in mercies...

posted 12-17-2005 07:18 AM         

my answer:

God is a personal God with feelings..I agree that the word is solid but God like us is the source of feelings, read on the Holy Spirit, He loves, He cries, such feelings of sadness and grief, joy unspeakable.

there is also the verse which says God is a jealous God, Christ was a man of sorrow,He was sad and full of grief when lazarus died, He wept beating his chest upon seeing the city of jerusalem, David sang joyfully and so on..

We have to rely on the word, but the Holy Spirit also gives us discernment and feelings
specially when you are in the middle of God's presence..

posted 12-17-2005 07:35 AM         

my answer

God is the source of everything, humans always find a way to reach to God, that is the reason God is alive and his words brings fresh revelations. It us true that the word again is solid, but revelations of the Holy Spirit is from God which is a gift to us, the book of revelations speaks of the final revelations of God, but many of us fears to interpret it, what does personal relationship means if we donot receive revelations personally from God?

Others says the devil gives false revelations,yes it is true but do some who believes in the word solidly and the word alone which is written, donot experience influence from the devil?

All of us are under the devil's tricks that is why we are given the spirit of discernment
so that we may know the difference which is from God and which is not. To fail to realize between the two is ignorance on the part of the believer, Christ says, my sheep knows me, the believer must know if the voice comes from God that is why the gifts of the Holy Spirit must come into unity with the word because there is only one source.

To deny the gifts of discernment and other operational gifts is the theory of the cessationists, the bible does not speak of cessation of these gifts.

If one says a gift was not manifested for centuries in the modern church, does that over rule the gift? Does it mean we have to add to the scriptures that a particular gift does not exist because people did not witness it for 500 years?

and If a nation did not witness a dead person come to life through the prayer of a faithful, does it mean the gift of healing ceased?

The bible does not say so..

posted 12-17-2005 10:50 AM         

guilt due to an unconfessed sin is a warning sign that there is something wrong which violates the righteousness of God..when a warning sign brings you back to repentance to seek God, isn't that of God?

a friend of mine got an ailment which could not be identified or diagnosed by doctors, suffering for almost three years, she sought one doctor after another but she never got the right diagnosis, she then realized that there is something wrong with her walk with God..

she prayed and told God that she is sufffering from an ailment unknown of its origin, she acknowledged her sins and prayed to God with contrite heart.

She sought God's forgiveness and asked for healing, after several months she was healed..

Was the illness not a sign from God? Was the discernment of untold sin not a sign from a righteous God? When this believer learned to confess untold sins and ask for forgiveness and healing, It made a way for her so that her suppplication to God was answered.

Was this not a personal revelation from God?

God deals with us uniquely according to our personalities and characters, his messeges flow through imperfect vessels, likewise
the interpretations of the bible flow through imperfect minds.But God uses people who make themselves available inspite of their imperfections.

When feelings and manifestations give doubt.
When interpretations confuse us...
there are ways to know the things from God or not..

Is it according to the bible and the attributes of God?
Does it show the fruits of the Holy Spirit?
Does it edify the church and the believer?
Does it glorify God?

Does God's image and reflection manifest in the daily life of the believer?

Even when one seeks and preaches or speaks of the written words without manifestations if his life is not a living example for God, if his life does not bear the fruits of the Holy Spirit then the preaching which he does is dead.

Because the truth which he preaches coming from God should be alive in his life.

Bottomline:

We may be in a church professing Christ,but without one important thing we would be nothing

Apostle Paul said that
LOVE IS THE GREATEST...

1Corinthians 13:1-13 is the photograph of LOVE which is God.

posted 12-19-2005 10:29 PM            

plus, on a practical side, I just don't have the space to reprint the Bible! let alone some publishers interpretation of it ... we all have a Bible and can look up verse, what we want here is a single parent exchange of our relationship to Him and Life.

posted 12-27-2005 10:15 AM         

As for counting the days of not seeing your ex, we have all done that at sometime.

As hard as this is to do, (and i must say it is also hard to say, so please dont be hurt by my words )

I now think you should stop counting the days as not seeing him, but count them
as days that you are coping well on your
own.

You will be suprised at the inner strength
you will build up thinking this way.

Start to plan for the future and think
about where you want to go from here.
It can just be little things we plan for
but they help us to build up to bigger things.

Sometimes i think the lord throws us things to see how well we will cope, even if we fail
he will still be there for us.

Start to look for the inner you, good luck.

god bless -x-x-