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Bluebird Member |
posted 10-11-2005 12:58 AM
  
I don't do this all the time, but lately I'm up so late at night with everything just spinning around and around in my mind. Forget sleeping, I just worry and cry. The money issues-- story's getting old there. I have a job coming up but am so far in the hole this month, I doubt I'll even be able to pay my rent. So, there's that stress. Now, this old flame from years ago is back in my heart and it's taking its toll on my emotions. We had some unresolved issues from the past to deal with.... and I was pretty direct with my feelings about them the past couple of weeks. I've apologized a couple of times for being harsh, but I'm afraid I may have blown it with him. It's sad to think that we were brought back together in such a freaky way... online!-- and, now I'm going to get my heart broken like all those years ago. I didn't intend to get emotionally involved, but I never stopped caring for this man and it's staring me right in the face. Anyway... lost my point... do any of you stay up at night battling your issues, or do you all just fall into bed and sleep like normal people? I can't wait to be working and coming home too tired to do this! If anyone's awake, chat with me, k? |
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JAYJAY Member |
posted 10-11-2005 02:43 AM
Don`t worry, you are not alone. I do all my best worring at night. I think it that we have so much Sometimes i think it is only me As for your love life, you must keep Please don`t let life get you down to much. Take care -x-x-x |
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lexiesmom Member |
posted 10-11-2005 12:34 PM
Blue- I know how you feel. I don't sleep anymore, when I do I fall asleep in the early hours of the morning and then need to get up with in a few hours. i wish I could spen those late nights studying, but I find my mind wandering, to grad applications, my gpa, FINANCES( how I am going to pay current bills let a lon how am I going to pay to move across the country), I miss Lex so much during the week it is killing me, I was at wrok yesterday and just started crying. I am sick of being alone, but not ready to commit, I am tired, I am not happy when I look in the mirrror. All these thoughts curse me late into the night, the forgetten phone call, or an asignment I didnt get done. And then like you an ex pops back into my life and causes even more worry. I had the one a few months ago who is married and "just wanted to let me know what a terrible mistake he made and how sorry he was a nd hoepfully I could forgive him." Then there is PJ who I am seeing next month in San Diego, which has my mind everywhere, and I know nothing good can come of it. We a perfect match but he is there and not able to move because of school and I am not abel to got there because of school . |
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Bluebird Member |
posted 10-11-2005 03:13 PM
If I get on a good bedtime routine... getting there early, reading and staying on a schedule, I don't usually have these late night crises. I guess the trouble is I'm not working, and can stay up, so I do. Then my mind starts going. Since my marriage ended 3 years ago, I've been pretty good at putting the lid on worries at night. I told my ex early on that I didn't even want to talk to him at night-- he always wanted to discuss stressful things at night-- because I needed to be able to unwind and get some rest. Now, I'm sitting up late... checking e-mail.... hoping to hear from this guy who is out West-- 3 hours earlier. When I hear from him, it's always late at night. I need to stop staying up hoping for that. This is wearing me out! p.s. That doctor's office I interviewed with a couple of months ago called me back and they want to hire me really badly. I start Monday! It's not the big pharma writing pay, but, hey, I have waited long enough for that pot of gold. I'm taking the sure thing this time! |
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JAYJAY Member |
posted 10-11-2005 03:14 PM
B/B how are you feeling? a little better i hope. Hi sent you this then read [This message has been edited by JAYJAY (edited 10-11-2005).] |
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cgracec Member |
posted 10-11-2005 06:50 PM
Congratulations on your job. Late at night I am alone with my thoughts and sometimes it is hard to keep from letting them take over my evening. It sounds as though you are opening old wounds with your boyfriend. Maybe taking a little break from the communication until you have a grip on your other concerns would help you think a little more clearly. Hopefully things will get better soon. |
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ladybugss Member |
posted 10-11-2005 09:30 PM
Great news on the job! Isn't that the one close to you? |
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Bluebird Member |
posted 10-11-2005 10:04 PM
Five minutes from home-- and that's with traffic! |
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lexiesmom Member |
posted 10-12-2005 01:16 AM
congrats on the job! very exciting  Once you get on a routine and are not stressed out as much it will get better |
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