posted 08-31-2008 07:27 PM            

Last night about 10:30 I get a call on my cell from a restricted number. Normally I dont answer these, but the phone had been in my pocket and when I took it out to look at the number I must have answered it. The caller hung up. I did not think anything of it, until that restricted number called again. Curiosity got the best of me. Thinking it must not have been a mistake that I was called I amswered the phone. The caller (I am positive it was the ex's GF, becuase she has a distinct brooklyn accent) said some pretty rude things, which I wont repeat. I hung up the phone, shut it off, called the ex and told him to tell his dumb bitch to leave me alone (he calls her a dumb broad). He said it could not have been her becuase she is passed out drunk. I asked if he was in front of her and he said no. I told him what the caller said and why I think it was his GF, he said he would go upstairs and check and have a talk with her if she was indeed awake and using the phone.

posted 09-09-2008 08:54 AM            

He left me while pregnant (im 7 months now almost) and told me his wife to be wants him to have nothing to do with my baby and they are gonna have kids. he told me this after Id been helping him while she was in jail. He didnt have money for cigarettes, food or a car. So I bought him full house of groceries cigarettes every day and gave him rides. Then one day after talking to her collect he told me be gone and I dont want the baby. He harrassed me so I got the police involved. Now hes not allowed to call me or come near me and his family hates me now too.

For some strange reason I still care for this man and it breaks my heart to think he may be happily married by now with his coke dealing fiancee while im left to carry his child and ponder what the future brings.

posted 09-10-2008 08:17 PM            

I know my ex is not happy with her. He wants to kick her out but he wont for one reason - she has 3 kids - I would add an additional reason in there - he is getting "lucky". It is okay to still love your ex, but you need to love yourself more and do what is best for you. I still love me ex, and am in love with the man I married. (That man "died" when his father died). But I know I can't be with him. He even admitted to me the other day how crappy he was to me and how he finally realizes it. He even went so far as to say that no one will ever understand the love we have for eachother. While this is all well and good. Going back to the ex would be the worst thing I could do for myself. I still get weepy at times, and still miss him at times (even though I found an awsome man, that really cares for me and the girls). Give yourself time, and allow yourself to feel the feelings. At the same time, try to seperate yourself from the ex, stop doing things for him, stop feeling bad for him. It has been 2 years for me and I never thought that I would ever say this, but time does heal all wounds. And while mine are still healing, the pain and anger is easier to deal with.